So I have had a really sucky day today. I´m not going to go into detail about what happened but let´s just say I feel like the biggest clichee. Right now all I want to do is fast forward a little bit to some point in the future where the pain is gone. The problem is, that doesn´t ever happen until you deal with things. So far my attempt of dealing with things has been to eat Ben&Jerrys ice cream, cry, and watch countless TV shows. Not my most successful try I have to admit.
But I mean WHY do we always need to "get over things" as soon as possible? When something breaks your heart you are allowed to be sad. I feel like constantly pushing things aside and trying to ignore all your emotions is what triggers my anxiety more than anything. Because I can go about my day feeling fine and then suddenly all those feelings will come back - and they get worse plus you don´t even know why you feel the way you do anymore.
Although it sucks, I guess we just have to endure the pain to get out on the other end. I´m not saying that pitying yourself and crying all day are the cure - you will eventually have to do shit again. But don´t make yourself feel bad for feeling bad. Because I´ve been doing that a lot and it´s only ever made things worse.
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